The work represented here was all put together in the spring of 2010. It has been after and during a long relocation to the Northwest for me. A very stressful time with much loss and mourning. Many dream like images and a lot of progression from my earlier more dauragatype style work but now representing more of a juxtaposition of hope and memory of loss. Old buildings with their run down style of photography and and almost electric color of hope in a lot of these images. Don Juan said in one of Carlos Casteneda's books "There is no completeness without sadness and longing, for without them there is no sobriety, no kindness. Wisdom without kindness and knowledge without sobriety are useless." To live this life and erase our sadness leaves us incomplete and also sets up what I believe is a karmic lesson that is inevitable. If there is no longing there is no hope. If we do not miss what was good or focus our tunnel vision on only certain aspects of the past then we are doomed to a life with a feeling that there is something somehow missing. Today I can cry and have hope. I can feel sadness for my loss and still feel an excitement for my life and creativity. My work is about my loss and pain and abandonment but also about the electric possibilities for the future and all that is to come if I remain present for everything in my world no matter how unbearable and painful it can be sometimes.